So work has eaten into my workout time. Which I dont like, but I will live with for now. I'll just have to find the time, and learn to pick when I sleep so I'm not so exhausted all the time (have i mentioned that graveyard shifts suck??).

So I'm about 5kgs off my ideal weight and about 8 off my 'happy' weight. I've dropped about 5kgs and 4% body fat in the past month so thats awesome. I just want it to go faster. I've worked up to doing 1.2kms running on the road and about 3km on the treadmill (4.5 if I do interval training instead). With my shoulder having been royally screwed for a while I've dropped the weight i've been lifting down and started to climb again. My favorite exercises (for various benefits and reasons) are: Cleans, Dead lifts, Bent over Rows, Australian Pull Ups, Dead Bug Crunches, Mountain Climbers, Dumbbell Swings, Turkish Get ups, Explosive Squats, Squats to front kick, Lunges with a twist, Incline Bench Reverse Crunches, Pike on the ball...

Okay so there are a few.

But the worst thing is I feel like I'm starting from scratch AGAIN. Its depressing. I really really really loathe my body right now and I loathe myself for losing discipline. I don't feel strong anymore, I don't feel fit. I feel lazy and fat and its gross and disgusting. But its OK, once I decide something nothing else gets in my way of getting it.

At least I'm spending Christmas alone (again) this year so I can ignore the whole Christmas feast thing (or people telling me to eat more, urgh) and just workout like its a normal day.